Heartbroken...

I'm sharing my feeling here because... it's too much to bare on my own.

My ex bf I broke up with 9 months ago told me he needs me to leave his life forever. We had good days and bad days, but I didn't know I was the only one who still cherished the memroies I built with him... It really aches my heart that I mean nothing to him now, that the memories are nothing but pain to him now...

I feel like my heart is constantly sinking into my stomach. I still love him, and I always will. But he's gone forever, and I must be gone forever from his life and memory... I... really can't accept this reality. I feel like I've lost one of my limbs...

He's now in a relationship with two other people. I don't want to think about it, but the intrusive thoughts of him being intimate with someone else are keep coming up in my head and give me a pain I can't describe with words... He's replaced me completely, with people he actually cares about... And I'm here just feeling lost and empty.

*For those who know my husband- I gotta clarify I'm still with him and we're ok. The ex bf I'm talking about here was in a poly relationship with us.